I am quite frustrated, as I do not know how to say what I am trying to say any more clearly than I already have.
I feel that people are still unable or unwilling to distinguish between--
(1) what my own studies, contemplations and experiences have shown me that Islam really is and teaches (good)
and
(2) what those who hate it and want to destroy it, as well as those who twist and abuse it for their own ends and those who are just plain confused or misled, say that it is and teaches (bad).
Sounds arrogant, I know. Miss Junior Muslimah know-it-all.But the Islam I know and love is not what most of you here think and say Islam is. I wish to correct these misconceptions. I hate distortions and untruths.
But please do not think I began my inquiries into Islam with any desire to make it something other than what it is (nor do I want to or need to now). It was not my religion and I had no reason to go out of my way to defend it. I just wanted to know the truth about it and, most fortunately, did not have any strong preconceived notions that Islam was either good or bad. I was not that familiar with it and did not imagine that what little I had heard about it was either the whole truth or complete falsehood.
A chat-friend in Turkey encouraged me to read the Qur'an. I thought, "Sure, ok. I've always had an interest in world religions and I don't remember ever trying to read it before. I'll have a go at it one of these days." I found some translations on-line, and started to read it but got distracted and didn't get very far.
Later, after he asked me again if I had read it, I tried again and this time read it all the way through. I could barely pull myself away from it. But I also found myself noticing items about Islam and Muslims more and more in the news and online, and none of it good.
So lots of questions sprang up! I would ask him about it, he would answer as best his English would allow and then I would go Googling. I dug and I dug: pro-Islam info, anti-Islam info, converts, apostates, scholars, anyone with an opinion, Qur'an, Hadith, the challenges of translating Arabic to English. I searched, I studied, I sifted, I sorted, I pondered.
I found ridiculously unsatisfactory apologetics (to my mind), I found some that were quite convincing, I found horrible outright lies, I found questionable information, I found sound information (all this to my mind, of course, my mind being all that I have with which to question, compare and decide), and beyond all that, I found myself simply accepting and believing the Qur'an on what I felt were its own merits.
I hope to read and understand the Qur'an in Arabic someday, and am working towards that. Until then, I will continue reading and researching English translations (which seem woefully inadequate and yet, somehow, still managed to"speak" to me) and I am currently reading it for the 5th time. I am not afraid to continue questioning and learning, but I see a huge difference between what Islam is and what too many Muslims and non-Muslims have made of it (what a horror show!), and that difference is what I try to show people.
Sweetstuff, the Qur'an does not say most of the people in hell are women, that comes from a hadith. Don't have time to discuss it now. http://qa.sunnipath.com/issue_view.asp?HD=7&ID=7547&CATE=3600 And it does not say women are inferior! although I am sure there is a good reason you think so. http://www.afghan-web.com/articles/womenrights.html
~Merry